Sadness

Everything is changing..
You know, when everything is not the same anymore. Its trully sad., I think I know why my head is so sick this few days. I think I realize why my heart is so empty this tew days. I can't fake it. I can't deny it. Hiks T-T

Kapan hari aku nimbrung di salah satu rapat temen-temen hijabee di hokben. I just so miss them damn much! I missed their laughs, I miss the business of event, I miss them. Eventhough rain fall so hard and the wind blows so hard, I didn't care. I just drive my motorcycle to that place. The place where my friends meet up. But when I first time come there, I feel like stranger. Haha.. this is trully true.. I'm the outsider right now. Apalagi ada yg nyeletuk, "Lhoh, mbak, komite? Kok disini?" I think this is a joke. But, unfortunately, not funny at all. It's like make some space and boundaries around me and them... my heart feels sad. Everything is changing but I thought is not. Betapa lugu nya aku. I shouldn't came there that day. It's hurt me.
I prefer to remember the day when I'm still one of them. Yes, aku nemilih untuk mengingat saat aku masih salah satu dari mereka. Tidak mengingat "kejadian" setelahnya. So, insyaallah hanya hal baik yang akan selalu aku ingat.. insyaallah..

After I choose to be married and moved to borneo, Everything is changing, and I have to face that fact. The situation, the community, the communucation, and the other "the" just say it, is changing. *sigh*